John Ferguson - Photographer

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A New Found Sense Of Excitement For My Photography....

At sixty, I find myself standing at a fascinating crossroads. Validation for my creative work has become more than just a nod of approval—it's become the fuel that propels me forward.

However, the journey to this point was filled with self-doubt and the ever-consent impostor syndrome.

Years ago, I remembered being faced with what seemed like a daunting task at the time but which proved to be a catalyst that would change my career trajectory. I volunteered for a high-stakes photo session with a leading television actress for a national newspaper. Until then, my experience in a photo studio was limited to assisting a seasoned photographer. The intricacies of studio lighting and the pressure of capturing the perfect shot were all new territory for me. I felt like a new actor stepping onto a grand stage, out of my depth and wondering if I could do this and the consequences of getting it wrong.

But I stepped forward. I set up my equipment, directed my subject, and let my instincts guide me. That first studio shoot wasn't just a job but a proving ground. It was where I confronted my insecurities head-on and discovered that my passion for photography was more significant than my fear of failure.

That pivotal assignment led to more opportunities, each one a stepping stone that built my confidence and refined my skills. Every seasoned professional was once a beginner who had to take a leap of faith.

Today, my work is fueled by a sense of urgency and excitement. I know where I'm going, and I understand my creative voice. This newfound clarity feels like a liberation, freeing me to explore more fantastic ideas and concepts that once seemed intimidating and way out of my comfort zone.

Instead of shying away from the unknown, I embrace these challenges. There's no fear, only a thrilling anticipation of what lies ahead.

Reaching this age, I've realised it's possible to seek out new belongings and dive into uncharted waters; it's like I have the enthusiasm of a beginner and the wisdom of experience. The fear that once held me back has been replaced by a profound excitement—a realisation that every new challenge is an opportunity for more growth and discovery.

It sounds like I've found my road to Damascus; that may be true.

This realisation has come about only from reflecting on my career's work. I've been honoured with my own large-scale photography exhibition in my adopted home of Ipswich, East Anglia.

https://ipswich.cimuseums.org.uk/an-eye-for-life/

An Eye For Life Exhibition Flyer

This major retrospective of my photographic journey validates and acknowledges my consistency and dedication to my craft. As creatives, we all seek some form of recognition for the work we put into the world. This new exhibition is not just a showcase of my images but a testament to my relentless pursuit of finding my voice and style, allowing my crafted vision to tell stories with my camera.

Those who've grappled with self-doubt and impostor syndrome know that validation isn't about seeking approval from others. It's about recognising your own worth and potential. It's about understanding that every misstep is a lesson, and every success is a testament to your resilience.

I'll continue with my photographic journey for as long as I can, inspired by the endless possibilities, fantastic new collaborations and exciting challenges that lay ahead.

It's an ever-evolving path, and I feel a renewed sense of purpose and excitement with each new project.

My message is simple: embrace the fear, chase the excitement, and never stop exploring. Your creative voice is unique and valuable; the world is waiting to see what you will create.

So you'd better get a wiggle on!